How do I deal with my sexuality? That's basically my life question at the moment. It increasingly gets harder as I grow older. And I am paralyzed by fear - fear of a lot of things. I actually have no clue how to handle the future.
I practically spent the whole day with Ricky Martin. My current predicament caused me to look into his confession. And how he is handling things right now. I jumped from one interview to another, and also to his music videos. I can't help but watch some of them over and over. Gosh he's so handsome. I cannot help but look at his face. I sure wish I was that good-looking. More importantly though, I observed how he handles himself after his confession. What struck me is his respect for himself. He never lost his dignity after coming out. That is what I am lacking big time. Respect and love for who I really am, and the courage to, well, basically, courage for everything.
In light of my current situation, I contacted some people, in the hopes that I can have a talk with them. I guess I need someone to talk to at the moment. I sure hope they will oblige...
Medyo kakaiba e, tahimik na masayahin na maloko rin, na minsan malungkutin din. Naniniwalang may kalaliman. Hindi pa nacocorrupt nang husto. Higit sa lahat, gwaping. (pagbigyan niyo na, kahit sa blog lang...)